During the past year, I have been
going through a difficult time. I was unemployed, lost a few friends and was
lonely. I had felt negative about everything that it impacted o the way I
behaved. I had no time for other people and focused on what brought me down
therefore bringing myself down. I lacked confidence in myself and slept through
most of days when coming back from job hunting.
One day, I decided to pack a few
of my belongings and head home. I needed to be surrounded by parental love and
support which gave me security. I told myself that I am not returning to Cape
Town. I helped at my mother’s NGO, went to church, tried putting on a few kilos
(I looked like a anorexic giraffe), going with my parents to visit relatives or
help out when they got jobs on the side. With encouragement from my parents and
the results that I am due to graduate in my Diploma in PR, I returned to Cape
Town where I squatted with my brother. I reached out for help and reached out
to people who were supportive, true family and friends.
I noticed that all that negativity had made me
behave in a negative way where I was drowning in my pity party. If you feel a
certain way, you endorse a particular behaviour. Its either that feeling is a
good one or a bad one, you can be the judge of that. Rather have good feelings
that will encourage you to have a positive behaviour.
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