Friday, 9 November 2012

Lost one

If we had fully taken advantage of the opportunities given to us in life, would we still be here right now, at this very position, in this moment in time, would we still be feeling the same way in which we feel now, or would it be different, more fulfilling, satisfying, assuring…would it? If I told you how I felt when you asked me, would you still be standing with me? Would you still feel the same way in which you felt 5years ago, would you still look at me the same way or would things changed? If I had lied to you then would the truth had surfaced today, or would I be so paranoid that I felt the urge to let you know? If I was so fed up in living the life in which I did and decided to run away would you come after me? Or would you let me be, just to long after me? Would you think of our firsts or would you hoping for our lasts, would you want us to last or was that a fantasy in which you once had? After all this time I know it’s strange but I find myself thinking about these moments more than usual, the thought once plots itself in my mind and I can’t help but hopelessly linger in the life in which I  could have had. Do not get me wrong I do not regret saying no, I am faced with all these questions which obviously will never be answered , the only way they could have been answered was if I was brave enough to allow myself to be broken, brave enough to accept that whatever happens shall and whatever doesn’t wasn’t meant to be. As time rapidly moves on and leaves us, I now realize that as much as I may tell myself that I am ready is the more I realized that I have trained myself for such destruction not knowing that I have slowly self destructed myself. If I could explain, enlighten you on how I feel, how I felt would it change the outcome of all the encounters in which we have had with other people? Would you have said the things in which you say and would I have acted the way in which I did towards others? Would a second chance be given to those who have wounded and scared us? Physically, mentally, emotionally….. Would you and I find our way back to each other; if so, would I still be able to feel? Feel all the things and ways you made me feel, without even acknowledging it, you had an effect on me, and so did I on you? Would you still remember the way I made you feel, if we found our way back to each other do you think what we will have would be real? Real enough to erase the past, the past in which we both willingly and foolishly accepted, blinded by the thoughts of greener pastures we turned our backs on a greater opportunity, we allowed ourselves to dream, sugar coated dreams, drenched in a fantasy, we were too good for one another and alone we agreed to stand, let our good conquer the world separately, for when combined it was lethal, so lethal it caused our fatal ending. When we find each other, I know we will find each other, I know my heart won’t beat the same way in which it did yesterday, my breaths will be longer as I inhale every breath of life, a breath drawn longer than I did my last, time will move slower, allowing each and every second wasted in the past to present its way to us, allowing us to re live lost time and as I hold on to every moment, it is imprinted within my memory, in a part only God and I know about, a part untraveled by the world, a part where only the dearest may tread along this path a path where you and I are the only humans it may come to know. My days brightened by your smile my nights awakened by your words, our lives made immortal by our hope, for we were once dead apart and fate allows us to relive, for we were nothing apart and our rebirth most certainly welcomed by the world. When we meet again, I know we shall, promise me we won’t waste time by reliving our regrets, we won’t waste time trying to move on, we have found our way back together and all that we have lost in the past we have finally won. I know when I do come to that realization I will truly be able to express myself, use the words disabled in my vocabulary, use the words in which I actually feel, perhaps then you would truly know how it is that I actually feel. Forget the times in which I became numb, suppressed my soul and defused my thoughts, allowing them to run away with me, I had hope they would have taken me far, but somehow they lead me to you, a place in which they must have believed was home for them. An outcome I had not hoped for yet at the same time could not be happier that it managed to present itself at me, I do believe in a higher power, a power which has had the ability to detect a connection so strong, banded in words unspoken, actions which awakened how we truly feel 

These walls

An empty room filled with heartfelt memories, time has played its role and in turn we have played ours, within these walls we have built lives, and as we leave, these lives do not end; instead they branch out to reach and touch other lives helping those to form new ones. As time quickly passes so do memories fade, but not these memories, not these built in these walls, when we were at our strongest and at our weakest these walls saw it all, heard it all and as the pillars on each side, they provided strength, like a God they gave us faith and as devoted believers we had hope that these walls would raise us as strong, humble and inviting as they were. Departure may be tough but it is in  here where we have learnt independence, it is in these very walls where we have spoken about being other people, the people we were meant to be, it is in this very room where our blind eyes were opened to the opportunities we were yet to see, it is in these very walls were our muted voices could be heard, our screams which fell on deaf ears arrived to welcoming ears  , our cries for help, our soft throbs which left stains on our pillows, all of our pain understood, all of our wounds healed. These walls provided us with something beyond what we could imagine, it opened our eyes, our hearts and our minds, a portal to heaven I would call it, where we choose to look past the bad and see the good, where we continued to love in spite of all the pain, where we choose to move on and dance in the rain. We do not live our lives as victims as these walls did not shelter us from the pain to try and protect us, but instead they let us feel the pain, in order to teach us, to help us understand how it really is out there. Our wounds may be healed but these scars still remain, and like a trophy we carry ours, we embrace them, as each day passes we remember exactly how we got them. The more we may try to forget is the more we always remember that our lives were nothing, and meant nothing until we made it into these walls.

              A life well lived

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16.. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41 Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

Thursday, 8 November 2012

Enjoy Life

Many people today don’t realize that the reason they’re not happy, the reason they’re not enjoying life is simply because they’ve trained their minds in the wrong direction. They’ve trained their minds to worry. They’ve trained their minds to complain. They’ve trained their minds to see the negative. But just as you can form these negative mindsets, you can retrain your mind according to the Word of God and form godly mindsets.
I believe one of the main keys to retraining your mind and developing a positive attitude is by learning to stay grateful. When you stay grateful, you are focusing on what’s right rather than what’s wrong. The seed of the Word takes root in the good ground of your heart. This doesn’t happen automatically, you have to discipline yourself. You have to make a conscious effort every single day until a good habit is formed.
Remember, when you live with an attitude of praise and thanksgiving, you are shielding yourself from the attacks of the enemy. The seeds of discouragement cannot take root in a grateful heart. Neither can bitterness, envy or strife. So today, retrain your mind and be empowered with His strength to overcome in every area of your life!

Let Play Trivia...No Googling


1. What does DVD stand for?

2.     What came first … Mac or pc?

3.     How many years has the Oprah show been on ?

4.     What were the first 3 major TV networks?

5.     Which 3 NBA teams do NOT end in ‘s’?

6.     When did the WNBA begin?

7.     Who was the first African-American to run for President?

8.     What is the new name of the Triboro Bridge? (NY question)

9.     For whom did Stevie Wonder pen his “Happy Birthday’ song?

10.  What are the 3 major causes of divorce in America?

11.  Put these in order from least to greatest
byte,  mb,  byte,  bit, kb,  tb

12. What was the first sitcom to star an African-American?

 12b. What does sitcom stand for?
13. How many people buried in Arlington Cemetery are dead?

14. What’s the difference between a celebrity and a star?

If not now, then why

What are you waiting for?  This is not giving you permission to go out and spend until you drop!  I am talking about all the things you say you want to do, but put it off for various reasons!  You know what I am talking about, it is the weight you want to lose, the exercise you put off, the class you want to take, but put off. The business you want to start, or the habit you want to break!
Let’s be honest, anything worthwhile is difficult, because if it were easy everyone would do it.  What have you been putting off? If it seems that I am simplifying the process, I am.  Do you want to look in the mirror some day and see an old man or woman and say where did my life go?  When I look in the mirror, I see an old man, but I have done everything I ever wanted to do in my life!  So what have you been putting off?  Ask yourself what you need to do today to start to accomplish it.  About thirty three years ago, I realized I wanted to be financial independent!  I put together a plan to accomplish that goal by age forty.  I took my goal and broke it down to daily tasks. 
You have to take responsibility for your life!  Stop making excuses and start now to go for what you want.  If you don’t have the skills, get them!  If you don’t have the training, get it!  Get whatever you need to meet the challenge. 

My favourate cat in the hat book

I have to admit that back when I was younger, I did not read much and did not have a favourite ‘cat in a hat’ book. 

I used instead do a lot of sports like, swimming, tennis, athletics and cycling. When I did read it was because I had to or it was books based on scientific facts.

I did however know about the cat in a hat books and the one that was a popular read among my class members was, “Cat quizzers”. In the book, Cat in the Hat challenges readers with seemingly silly questions like: Do pineapples grow on pine or apple trees? Do roosters sleep on their backs or sides?